Self Esteem and Lost Friends

Recently it has been brought to my attention that im not quite a ugly as previously thought. Wich is strange because my whole life I've been told that im Ugly, Fugly even Pug-Fugley. And now all the sudden im not (according to trusted sources). I thought maybe they were just being nice but I was looking in my mirror the other day and I actually believe it. Which is crazy because I've never thought that my entire life. Its like I just injected 1000 mg of self esteem directly to my bloodstream. But what am I supposed to do with this new found "attractiveness"? I don't know how to meet girls, whenever I try to spark a conversation with some strange girl it usually pans out like this "Uhhh....So yeah....uhh" know what I mean? I'll need some kind of formal training or something like that. I guess I'll just continue existing and we'll see what happens.

Sorry, but I have more shit to complain about. The "friends list" is growing shorter by the day. It seems like the only people I really see or hang out with anymore are June, Cory, Kira and Alex. And im not really complaining about it (because those are really awesome people) im just slightly disappointed in a couple "friends". Namely Nathan and Nicole. First off, I knew it was bullshit when Nicole said she wanted to be "best friends" with me. I know that girl way too well for her to get away with that kind of shit. She never calls me, and when I ask her if she wants to hang out she kind of gives some half-asked excuse and you know what? I could really give a shit. Obviously she doesn't want to be friends with me and if that's her decision that's totally fine with me. Nathan on the other hand, he's just crazy. I never have any idea what that kid is up to 3/4 of the time he doesn't pick up my calls and whatever I know he's busy and shit all the time but I would at least like to hang out with him for more than an hour. Well, that's about enough bullshitting for me. I'll probably get in trouble for what I just wrote but I don't give a fuck.