My two selves.

I dont know if anyone is really aware of this but the person that i am today is a combination of two other people and those people are Andrew and Skippy. They dont really have anything in common (as far as behavior goes) but they have mixed to create who i am at this very moment. Andrew is who i was before i came to boulder. He's quiet, shy, passive and has a complete lack of self-confidence... So pretty much he's just a little whiney pussy. Now Skippy is a different story, i guess that personality devolped because i had been pushed around and thrown away my whole life and i didnt want that anymore. So skippy is straight-foward, aggressive, obnoxious, loud and just a general asshole. Allthough still lacking in self-confidence. And i guess these two "identities" have crossed paths and became who i am at this moment. Even though they still have their individual voices and opinions about life. I know this all must sound really fucked up, but its totally how i feel. Now i guess the trick in being two different people at the same time is balancing the feelings and emotions i get from both of them all the time. It's not easy, in fact its very fucking hard. If anyone ever wonders why im so fucking strange and unstable all the time, thats why. I figure some day both of them will just shut the fuck up and quit sending me mixed messages all the time. Im a really fucked up kid (if you didnt allready know that) and there isn't a whole lot i can do about it. Thats about enough of this post, i feel like my brain is about to explode so im gonna go smoke. Or maybe i should say we're gonna go smoke.